Messages from angels
Not too long ago, for the third serious time, without a doubt more serious than the other two I tried to take my life. Up to the day when the plan was but into action for the first time in my life I turned to God. This might not seem like a big thing but those who know me will know that I was never a believer to any extent even though I was raised catholic. But the in the, what i thought would be the final weeks of my life in went to church when it was empty, lit a candle and prayed to God for his forgiveness. It wasnt that I was ungrateful but I was offering my life back to him, as I felt it was wasted on me. On the night of my failed attempt the noose which had bee tested many many times somehow snapped and so did the pole from which it was hanging, even now I cant see how that was possible, it was strong enough to hold someone triple my weight but it broke. All that time I had been beging God for a sign for something to tell me what to do…and i think in the end he gave me a pretty clear one. So im never gunna say i dont believe or judge others for what they believe because what happened that night was totally some outsiders doing….and as much as im afraid to live on…i couldnt thank him more.
Take my hand in your hand
Please show me the way
Guide me up to heaven now
And promise me I can stay.
Introduce me to those angels
The ones that promise to keep me safe
Lead me to that place of rest
Away from this world of hate.
Tell me I dont belong here
Tell me it isnt true
Tell me theres someone waiting
Far away in the sea so blue.
This is all just a big mistake
The life running through these veins
Why do you let my cries go unheard
Why dont you listen when I call your name.
He is calling for you
But you just dont hear
You think he is far
But today he is near
He wont show you the way
Because its just not your time
Your a child of the earth
Your not ready to be mine.
He wont let you waste your life
Your prescious youth
If you look hard enough
You will find the truth
Theres so much beauty in this world
The light of the sun the stars and the moon
If you leave now you wont see change
Peace love or hear the earth play its special tune
I know your still sad and it beckons you back
That deep dark place never goes away
But you need to be strong you have a future now
Just hold on, even if its just one more day.
They dont wanna stand in a church
Trying to figure out what they did wrong
They dont wanna have to say goodbye
While they listen to your favourite songs.
Somehow the days seem a bit brighter
And the nights dont seem as long
I think im starting to find my place here
Somewhere I feel I belong.
I have this urge in me to fight
For justice, freedom and peace
To see a planet free from danger
Where abuse of our rights will cease.
I still dont see a point in life
When you live only for yourself
But I know my reason to live on today
And its not for personal wealth.
There definatly is a reason
Why I feel, see and hear as deeply as I do
I always thought of it as a curse
But maybe im one of the selected few.
Im staying here becasue I need to help
The children with no one around
To feed to hungry, house the homeless
To pick the ill and wounded from the ground
Cos now I know thats my task
The plan that was laid on for me
And maybe someday when I really deserve it
God will finally set me free.
aspectsoftmk
life with every twist and turn can never be felt totally until you find the belief that there is more than you…
....i believe you were open to yourself and saw that god is in you always..and there is work for you to do here…and i so hope you can see the colors in life and teach why we see…...and emma….you are loved…
Abeona replied
Thankyou terri x
Jaybe
Emma…..everything happens for a reason and there is definitely more out there than what we see. I believe you can do so much good in this world and I believe you will…
As Terri said, know you’re loved….feel the way forward and make a difference, no matter how small.