Reaching Freedom

This womanhood is getting the best of me
Throwing my emotions around like a careless child
A child that has no control
There is no control
No knob, no switch
But it switches
Swiftly, forcefully
One emotion …

I have a confession to make.

… everyone is looking at you

I’m staring at the EXIT sign
Wondering if it’s an easy way out
Wondering if I’ll set off an alarm
If I walk out the door
Wondering if anyone will notice
The absence of my presence

The EXIT sign is glowing…

She lays in the dark
Where sadness grows a garden
Covering her in vines and black flowers
Stealing her tears as nourishment
It grows and expands
Filling the night with a scent of longing and loneliness
Tha…

The numbness is taking over again
A feeling of nothingness
That doesn’t let me feel
An invisible cloak of armor
That protects me
That shields me from feeling
So I’m just numb
Stagnant, stuck
Unable to feel,…

But those were the dreams of a young girl.
Life got in the way of all that.

Loneliness is interrupting
Disrupting
Her flow
Coming and going
It washes over her
Then recedes
Proceeds
On its way
Satisfied
It’s ruined her day

With a faithful breath I plunged clean and fast into your beauty.

“… it is full of opportunities which a rainy day unfold more preciously than the sun’s intrinsic heat ever could.”

places unfamiliar to my body, the scent of love, sensations such as of a soul, the glory of you, transcended in love

It feels safe to look up and breathe in.

Watch another day
now roll into being,
And try not to think about
hearts now screaming.
A Warrior now gone
from arms of Love.
A Woman now howling
at dark skies above.
A Daughter now wondering
“where ha…

Can you see me sitting here?
I am alone.
Yes, that is me, the girl in the red dress
Twirling copper curls through her pale,
Skeletal fingers.
Cannot you hear the thoughts dancing through my head?

She left me in May
No one knew that she was leaving
She took her usual stroll
Usual pace
Usual laughter
I could not have known
She was not returning
She greeted the people on the road
Like every other day
Sh…

Fire through my soul,
Lies left as ashes.
Flames of dreams
Burning my pen
Forging words of fire,
Flame music
Shouting on paper
Burn! Burn! Burn!
Blank pages
Eternally subdued
Minds ignited,
Flickers of wisdo…

shedding me
one painful nerve at a time

I realise that I’d rather live in a world of dreams
Where the song of the butterfly wings can be heard
Where rain is diamond liquid falling from the sky
Where the mellow voice of the forest laughs…