|Jenifer DeBellis 1312 posts||
Mental torment: we mold the masks that cover the shame; we wear the warpaint as a badge of honour; we try to smother the voices of torment in the darkest corners of our being. But the masks and the paint and the darkest of dark cannot drown out the madness. It will find a crack, an opportune moment, and creep into every waking fiber of our being — and then it will unleash it’s wrath. It might come in the form of the silent warfare of the repeated whisper that no one else can hear. Or it might sing in the voice of condemnation and guilt that can’t be distinguished from one’s own. Or maybe it’s hiding out with the screams of madness, anxiety riddled thoughts, and/or the ocean depths of depression that carry with them every imaginable clinical name. But one thing’s certain: the torment finds each one of us in its own time, with its own purpose, and in its own shades of raging colour.
There’s a vibration that has been crying out to my spirit this week. It’s continued to reveal these masks of suffering that so many are struggling to fit into, hide behind, or simply endure to overcome. One thing that stood out in these connected works is what beauty can be crafted out of the ashes from such torment.
The voices never tire of tormenting in a restless mind.
Even when we set out to conquer, our very own loose ends often become our very undoing.
You must know most of my plans come to naught.*
Sometimes, the tormentor rears its ugly head, so even our reflection becomes a constant, nagging reminder.
Often, numbness is the only defense against the chaos.
I know the pitch-black dead of night
ahead, there’s light
Reminded of the mistakes, reminded of the hurts, reminded of the disappointments; where one voice leaves off, the others pick up.
Let’s not forget about the reminder of being insignificant, unimportant in the larger picture.
It’s often not at all what is appears to be. Sometimes, it becomes one’s forbidden lover — yet, it’s still just another deceptive place of hiding.
How overpowering those moments are when the compounding torment turns into full-blown anxiety.
She ran into bricks,
How about 20 milligrams
Sweet and oh so low,
For her brain,
Alone in the song,
Medicine can fix everything, right? Or is it too often fashioned into another mask, a cover of false comfort, or another dimension of torment?
There has to be something, anything, to drown it all out, to still the raging sea, to paint the colours of a troubled soul right.
I lie in bed
Like a body without a soul
He says “Try meditation”
Whatever it is instilled
Images stream through my head
“I’m like eyes without a face
Bubbling with emotional energy, how empowering are the screams that become melodies of witness to others?
Hopefully, within the midst of the madness, we don’t forget what our true reflection looks like.
like a tree
it is then
for I am earthed
dig me out
who I am
|autumnwind 7872 posts||
Jenifer, your presentation of these features here is phenomenal and speaks to me deeply, as do all these amazing works of art and poetry. To simply read and view your features every week, is a sharing of deep seated emotion like no other. It is the knowing of not being alone in the darkness. Anna, Sybille and Jenifer and any other hosts of this group, you give so much more than you realize, to so many reading and viewing. To have the honor of being a part of this is truly gift beyond measure, validation and rare privilege. I thank you all from the deepest part of me. Congratulations to all featured artists this week. And congratulations amazing hosts for creating a space of raw and creative freedom, which has resulted for me in being a most supportive comfort zone, I treasure dearly.
|eoconnor 2467 posts||
WONDERFULLY PRESENTED WORKS ALL WRITTINGS AND ART P;OWERFUL LOOKS AT THE WOMEN< AND THEIR THOUGHTS WELL DONE ALL .THIS IS A POWERFUL PLACE TO SEE GREAT WORKS THANKS PINK PANTHER!!lKZ
|Anna Shaw 7360 posts||
Dear Jenifer – each time I think that you cannot bring any more to the features – you do. This is walk through the dark side, but always with the belief that the walk will lead to new horizons, new insights and newfound self knowledge. What you have enabled me to understand is just how painful is this voyage, but what unaccountable beauty can be found at the same time.
These features are just one example of why I love this group so much and why I value the openness, honesty and courage of our sisters here.
Dear Shar – thank you – and you are just so insightful when you talk about the raw and creative freedom here. Your words mean so much to me.
|C Rodriguez 80 posts||
Thank you so much Jenifer for making my piece a part of this great presentation. With each new feature my work receives, I feel less and less alone in my battle with myself….I know I am not the only one who suffers from inner demons, but I know I am also not the only one who can express those demons in such a beautiful way….CONGRATULATIONS to everyone….thank you. xoxoxo
|Sally Omar 963 posts||
Congratulations to everyone featured!!! And thank you for featuring “insignificant” … I am truly honoured!! xo
|H Maria Perry 4327 posts||
Congratulations all you lovely feminists! Great art and writing!
|Alenka Co 386 posts||
Thank you, for allowing me to share such feelings with your group, for letting me ‘step into the light’
|Beautifuldreamer 81 posts||
A great collection of female creativity!
|Sybille Sterk 1472 posts||
Fabulous collection Jen, love the way you’ve combined them. Lots of them would have been in my midweek features. LOL Congrats to everyone. xo
|msdebbie 365 posts||
Dear Jen, thanks so much for including panic-attack girl in this tremendous collection of art and poetry. I have such respect for the way that you feature such powerful works – and it is an honour in such a strong group of amazing writers and artists. The flow through of ideas is really captivating – congratulations to all involved xoxoxo
|Jenifer DeBellis 1312 posts||
Thanks everyone. There really is so much wonderful art and writing in this group; putting a feature together takes on a life and energy of its own.
|KathiSPerez 13 posts||
Powerfull, All – Fantastic collection
|KIK KIK 145 posts||
yessssssss, A great collection of female creativity… Great art and writing…Congratulations~
|oema 20 posts||
what a strong compilation of art… such beauty from such pain… really powerful work.